Ramen....

So early today...(well I guess yesterday now) I was eating a bowl of Ramen noodles. I had fancied them up with soy sauce and extra seasoning and I was eating them in my big girl apartment with my chopsticks that I bought in Vancouver....But they brought me back to a place where I first had Ramen noodles at my Granny Mc's house. It was September and my parents had gone to North Carolina for a conference. Audrea and I where staying with my grandparents at this time they lived in the old house, the house my Dad grew up in next door to the Grocery store/gas station they ran up until the year I was born. It was at that time being used as a Antique store. But all of that is completely besides the point. Anyways back to Ramen, one night my Granny was tired and didn't feel like making a huge dinner which was totally acceptable for a women who was a Cancer survivor and a diabetic this being before her cancer came back. So since she was tired she served my sister and I Ramen noodles. and We feel in in love with Ramen noodles. From that day on my grandmother made sure there where always ramen noodles at her house because we liked them...this food item along with Mt. Dew, Diet Coke, Potted Meat, and Various types of Little Debbie Cakes could always be found at my grandparents house just in case the grandkids might drop by and might be hungry. It is one of my precious memories of my grandparents. I miss my Granny I know she is in Heaven and one day I will get to worship our Lord with her forever. I am sad I don't get to visit my Papaw as much as I would like, He is very wise and terribly honest these days. I hope to get to visit with him soon. I was blessed to have such Godly Grandparents. I don't think with them my family would be the family it is today. Much prayer has been prayed for each of us. My Grandmother gave each of her children to Lord and it is evident in their lives and the lives of their children. So yeah a bowl a ramen can mean a lot when you take time to think over the little things in life

Now what?

I can not begin to say how sad I am about the tragedy that hit Smithville yesterday.....it is oh so close to home. So many many memories that no longer have landmarks to spark such joyous times in my life. And the people whose home where lost and business destroyed what do you do. What can you say. How can you comfort this type of loss....I have been thinking about how I would handle this a professional the scars that this is going to leave on the people of Smithville will not be easily fixed. Nor do I know if they could be fixed, more like just eased. So how do you ease the pain. NOW WHAT?

on totally different note....I finished my first Graduate level class tonight...woot woot.only 18ish more to go lol...

Life gets crazy sometimes....well a lot actually

So I am within two weeks of finishing my first trimester of Grad school...for those who do not speak the language of William Carey University we are on a trimester system because we are weird so we have three terms of classes...well four if you count summer...So anyway I almost finished with that and will then get a short break before I start my summer classes...I think I am going to pull my first 4.o ever! I am super pumped. I am getting worried about my summer classes though...but I still think that it will be good.
Of course in my life it seems there is always a boy and this time though he is completely amazing and I care for him dearly....it is a complicated situation. it makes me sad and i hate that it is this hard. all of this we have talked about I hope this will have a good turn out but yeah, it is crazy..
I am enjoying my job at Cracker Barrel it will be good experience working with different personality types in different scenarios. Plus I get along with most of the management and my co-workers
I love being social again...it makes me tired sometimes. but it is so fun just having people to laugh with about stupid stuff again.
This past month has not been without its mistakes and short-comings though I take full responsibility for my part in those actions.
but yeah that about it for now
ash

Counting them...

SO one of my friends wrote about her blessing so I thought I would also share some of mine:


11) My besties Kat and Brittany these to keep me grounded can't even tell you how much I love these girls they make me laugh when I need it the most but are still there to listen when I just need to cry. I can't thank them enough. I love that we get each other so much that we can have complete conversations without even speaking. (it really weirds people out) we just clicked and I am so glad that God put them in my life.
10) my Gamma Chi Sisters! I love these girls so much I know that we will come and go out of each others lives but I know that we will always be sisters and we share a bond that can't be explained you just have to be a sister to know what we are talking about I care deeply for these ladies and they have been so great one of the best decisions of college
9) growing up in a christian family this is a very old picture of our family at a Homecoming at Martin Baptist Church. the Lord has blessed us so much I can't even start to explain how...
8) my sweet little Cash Money! this little red head has stolen my heart. his blue/green eyes and that smile...and he can say Ashy now and oh my those kisses. He is a little heartbreaker!!
7) My Tripp I honestly can't remember life before this little man came to our family. This little man keeps us on our toes and we never know what he will say next. He gets it honest. I love getting to see his little personality develop and watch him learn and discover. I enjoy getting to read books to him and play matching games and puzzles. I can't wait to get to watch him grow into the young man that God is going to make him.
6) I am blessed that I have fun memories of moments like this with my sister we had a great friendship as children even though she bossed me around most the time but I loved when we got to do funny things like this! and as we got older I begged to go everywhere with her lol then as she moved of to college I loved when she came home or we got to go see her because we keep getting closer and closer, Then she got married to an Amazing man and I got a brother and now my sweet nephews! I love my sister she is my best friend AUDREA thank you for asking for a sister I hope you weren't disappointed...jk
5) my amazing grandparents Esther and Travis McMillen I was blessed to get to have my Granny Mc for 16 years...even when doctors said she would die 3 years before I was born. She was an amazing woman and the love of God was shown in her. My papaw mc still makes me smile I remember sitting in his lap and watching westerns and him always offering me a dip of snuff. They had five amazing children Sarah, Linda, Ronald(not pictured but his son Justin is) Jerry, and my Daddy (Tim) and they raised them in a caring, loving yet strict home where Christ was the center of their lives.
4) Parents that still love each other! I am blessed with a mother and father that are still very much in love the picture below is from my Mom's senior prom. and to quote my Dad " I love her more everyday" so after 34 years that is a lot of love :)
3) my dad I have always been a daddy's girl. when my mom was going to college I got to spend a lot of time with my Dad as he had just went into full-time ministry. I remember going to JR market and getting corn dog nuggets and visiting the Nursing Home with him. I remember our fishing trip and him trying to get me to play sport. He has always pushed me to do my very best and I am glad that he did...
2) my mom she is so amazing I love this woman and so thankful that I get to call her momma. She is someone i can always talk to no matter what I love how close we have gotten as I have gotten older I love our Mexican meals and shopping trips. She always encouraged me to just do it and not to second guess myself. Whenever I am like I can't do this I'm not good enough or smart enough she is like who says and I thank her for that
1) I am so blessed to a follower of Christ and he has blessed me so much I love him and praise him for all he does for us.

UPS delievers

I feel like a real grown person now....UPS delivered a box to my door that contained my first Grad school text book...I want to be a nerd and read the first chapter before class. Which if you knew me last year this would be funny because I rarely bought the book much less read it. But this is different this is Grad school time to put on the big girl panties and really try. 4.0 here I come!

New Beginnings

So I am now back in Hattiesburg. About to go meet with Dr.Baugh and do scary things like register for classes. I am so nervous about being back in school it is so weird. I mean it hasn't even been a whole year.
Anyways I am starting many new things and ending many old things....after I moved home I became addicted to something that most people don't know about. It wasn't anything illegal just sinful.(if you ask me about it I will tell you) I am trying to overcome this with the help of God. I know that He is the only one who can guard my heart against this desire. I know that I am covered in His grace and held in His hands so I am putting my trust in Him.
I am also trying to decide if keeping a certain friend in my life is really worth all the heartache that it brings me....
pleas pray
ash

One Week and counting!

So right now I am in my super cool apartment in my dear sweet Hattiesburg. I have missed this city so much. I have a job interview tomorrow and it is the perfect job for me. I really hope that I get this job. But after the interview I have to go back to Amory and finish out my current life. I will live in Hattiesburg for real as of Feb.14. It is going to epic.
This weekend has been good and much needed social time. I got to see a lot of my rx sisters on Saturday and tonight I got to see my Hattiesburg church family. I don't think I have laughed this much in months. I hope that I become a bit happier when I move back...It has been a real sad few months for me....It has been a black period. I am ready for a sunny spot!
God has really made this move work, if this were not his will things would not have happened this easily or quickly. He blesses me more than I deserve
in his name
Ash