So I am a therapist right and I know all the ends and out of how to help other people deal with their own issues...but my issues, well that is a whole different ballgame. The wonderful person that was mentioned in my last blog as someone that I was "talking" has graduated to boyfriend status. Yes an official boyfriend. Things should be wonderful right?
Well it would be if I wouldn't over think every text message and convince myself every other day that he is going to say that he was just kidding about this whole relationship thing and he doesn't really want that kind of relationship with me.
See the problem. I am the problem. I have experienced heartbreak so much that I can't enjoy my relationship when it is going just fine. We are both busy professionals, we don't live in the same county and have to be at work before 8 a.m. This are all things that I know. But I keep comparing this to past relationships that failed or worrying that it will end the same way. Then the real kicker is when I compare our relationship to other peoples relationship. You know people who see each other more than once a week. We talked for a long time, and techniqually this is our first month of dating but I am 27 and I am sick of games but I can't tell him that because that could scare him and it would be over. I don't want it to be over....so why can't I just be happy with what I have?
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