New Beginnings

So I am now back in Hattiesburg. About to go meet with Dr.Baugh and do scary things like register for classes. I am so nervous about being back in school it is so weird. I mean it hasn't even been a whole year.
Anyways I am starting many new things and ending many old things....after I moved home I became addicted to something that most people don't know about. It wasn't anything illegal just sinful.(if you ask me about it I will tell you) I am trying to overcome this with the help of God. I know that He is the only one who can guard my heart against this desire. I know that I am covered in His grace and held in His hands so I am putting my trust in Him.
I am also trying to decide if keeping a certain friend in my life is really worth all the heartache that it brings me....
pleas pray
ash

One Week and counting!

So right now I am in my super cool apartment in my dear sweet Hattiesburg. I have missed this city so much. I have a job interview tomorrow and it is the perfect job for me. I really hope that I get this job. But after the interview I have to go back to Amory and finish out my current life. I will live in Hattiesburg for real as of Feb.14. It is going to epic.
This weekend has been good and much needed social time. I got to see a lot of my rx sisters on Saturday and tonight I got to see my Hattiesburg church family. I don't think I have laughed this much in months. I hope that I become a bit happier when I move back...It has been a real sad few months for me....It has been a black period. I am ready for a sunny spot!
God has really made this move work, if this were not his will things would not have happened this easily or quickly. He blesses me more than I deserve
in his name
Ash

bring on the changes

So...tomorrow morning I am going to put in my notice at work My LAST DAY as a Preschool teacher will be Feb. 11! LET THE COUNT DOWN BEGIN! I am so happy to get to go back to Hattiesburg. My apartment is SOOOOOoooOOO CUTE and I want to be there so bad. So as soon as I can I will be there! :)

excited...I think

so I am going on a Date and I think I am excited...I am excited about where the Date is at. What girl wouldn't want to go see Beauty and the Beast off Broadway. but this guy I really hope has grown up since the last time we hung-out. I hope I am not making a huge mistake. I don't want to hurt him. I don't want to hurt one of my best friends I am scared that this will cause me to lose one of my best friends...but I guess one could say that would be his own damn fault. Moving on is scary but its needed!
I need a change of scenery. Staying in one place is getting on my nerves!

Thankful in a Valley...

So the past few months have been, well not what I expected. But I still have many things to be thankful for. I have two amazing parents even when they drive me bananas. They love me they take care of me they are want to help me grow into a functional adult. I couldn't ask for two better parents. My mom is one of my best friends and my dad is my hero. Even when we don't see eye to eye I know he will always be there to support me. I have a wonderful sister who is my rock and I would not know what to do without her she doesn't know what she means to me. AND her wonderful husband who is more like a brother than a brother-in-law. I am so glad to have him in our family. My two nephews they are a gift from God and a bright spot in my life. I am thankful that I have a job. I am thankful for my friends and a few who have went above and beyond this year. I am so thankful for Brittany, Kat and Amber those girls make me smile on my worst days. Lee my new brother has also been there and I can't thank him enough.God has blessed me so much.

Teaching is Hard Work!

So I have began to hate special days at school I almost hate having them....Sitting at my desk today making out the calender for Nov. I shuttered a little when I wrote in the Thanksgiving Party. I can imagine them asking "Ms. Ashawee what are you Thankful for" my answer would be the three days off I am about to have!
Today was crazy, I have one kid who just goes crazy some days and then the rest of the kids go crazy with her.
SO tired of all this not this is not what i am suppose to do for the rest of my life!

how did it come to this...

So I don't know why but I find myself always trying to find the next boy to be totally crazy about, when I know that I just need a break from all that craziness...and in that I end up thinking about doing something that would hurt someone else or make me really unhappy. I find myself currently in love with the attention someone gave me. Not that I care at all about that person. Yes I know I sound like a horrible person. But I like the attention for a few days then it was weird...it got on my nerves. Like chill dude I'm not that cool. but its like i don't know where I am going anymore and i am just turning in circles...every week is the same and i am dying here. I need to get out of this house out of this area of the state....maybe even out of the south for awhile!