Rapidly Slow

If things could be going painfully slow, and way to fast all the same time that might explain my world right now.
I am in that werid session of life, that admitedly I have been in for awhile now, but at I approch 27 which is far closer to 30 than 20, is starting to get to me. The season where all your friends are getting married and some of your friends are even having children, or their second child. You congratlate them, you send gifts with your best wishes, you even attend or accept the honor of being in the wedding party. Then late at night it hits you, even though are activily "talking" to someone those things, the wedding, having children, building houses...they aren't in your forseeable future. They might happen in the next three years, maybe, but most likely they won't and you celebrate your 30th birthday doing something really depressing like having yet another Harry Potter viewing party, alone, eating Ben&Jerry's in your comfy pants.
But wait, I sound sad but I have all these accomplishments, I have a Master's, I passed the NCE, I have a great job, I am working toward a National Certification in Tramua Therapy, I am the Director of a Summer Camp, I help with a youth (a lot) and do all these amazing things.
But where is the time for me to met with the Father? When have I blocked that off in my tight daily routine. When do I stop and thank him for all that he has done for me?
If I am being truthful rarely. Rarely do I take the time cultivate my personal relationship, I study for classes I teach, work on next years camp material. But time for me to stop being busy and work on my relationship with the father, well I don't make time for that. Because it is scary, what if he wants me to work on some things in my life, some areas that I keep to myself. So as I keep people out of the hard places, I try to keep the Father out too.
But where do I even start to change? Get in the word, listen to podcast, listen to music. All of these things I do, but what about being still and knowing that he is Lord. Well not sure if I have mastered that skill yet. I am never still I am always doing something. So how can I BE STILL when I have so much of HIS work to do. Camp won't plan itself you know, the lesson doesn't get taught without someone being there. I don't have an answer to this, just a heart cry. Teach my soul and heart to be still and calm.

Almost finished with my first year...

I am 36 hrs away from completing my first year of being a school therapist, and I have shown "growth in my abilities" so that was cool.  I love where I work, the teachers at the schools I serve at and my Communicare family. I don't know how I would have survived this first year without them. My outside of work life is a bit complicated. Due to the whole live in one County, work in one County, go to church/serve at said chuch in another county thing. So I have the really large triangle that I go around. I can't imagine change a single part of this it is who I am and what I am suppose to do for now.

My house is cute and I love being around my family that I never got to see and being in the Ingomar community, I have met a really amazing friend that makes this transition easier, and all I can say about him is he is the most wonderful friend I could have asked for in this session of life.

My work is hard and I really hate paperwork but the lovely ladies I get to goof off with make it so great.

My church, where to start....well in Aug. I became the unoffical interm youth leader and I love love love my Shady people. We done fall retreat, YEC, DNow, and in a week we will be loading up and going to Williamsburg KY for MFuge. I love seeing them grow and have fun.

I am also directing a Kid's camp for PCBA this summer...CRAZY, I don't know how I will pull it off, but I know that GOD will do great things.

NOW,  I got to go do some fun stuff for Mental Health Awareness day in the park.

my life is so different than it was a year ago but I am okay with it, the people that have been added to my life make all the change worth it.

in christ
Ash